Are you available for friendship?

I found out a few things about when I am out looking for new friends. May be there are some people out there who knows the art of making friends. Some might have developed some nice tricks over the years too. Going along the way, I discovered a few things about myself. I feel the need to discuss them with me and see if I can record a thing of two. I am gone to a Diwali party. Landing there I found myself standing in a crowded big hall. People are scattered in groups and pairs. All the chattering groups look unwelcoming - there seems to be no openings. I began wandering around throwing my unfocused gaze here and there suggesting that I am looking for someone to talk to. Am I shy? I asked myself. No you are not shy at all, came the answer from me. Well, I am not shy, but kind of deprived of courage by the thought that I should walk up to another wandering stranger. But that is exactly what I will have to do if I do not want to spend the rest of the evening standing alone, talking to myself. Dauntless, at last I walk up to the first single man I see. "Hello n Happy Diwali", I am Anil and I recently migrated to Canada. It is for me like as if I had to undergo an emotional speculation; as if I am forcing my self on a person in spite of resistence by asking "are you available for friendship for this evening?"