People and I

I don’t know what the perfect way is. I have been searching for it all my life. I feel no matter how far I wander down the road in a search of the perfect way, there will always be further to go. I have been pushing myself but it seems I will have to now avoid pushing myself too far in an impossible direction. That does not mean I will not move further. Only I will go further in a wise one.

I know there are techniques I need to use in my attempts to get success. I sometimes feel I have a far better technique or resource than the one that I am attempting to use. Why am I unable to tap on my own recourses? I do not know. May be I have to make an extra effort. Perhaps an extra effort spent trying to find it will save me the time and trouble.

At this age and after meeting thousands of people during my journey, it is hard to understand people. I don’t know if it is my inability or truly people are changing attitudes. For me it is hard to understand people. People of real character are becoming scarce. Should I be or shouldn’t be proud of what makes me different, I don’t know. Some people appreciate me for sure but some might hate me too.

To some people I don't seem to be making sense at all. It seems the development of sophisticated thought and its articulation through civilized language has passed them by.